TO ANOTHER BEGINNING.....

Well, its been awhile--a long while since I have used this space.  I gotta be honest I am reaching out to this venue again as it works so well the first time.  I want to put my journey into word form and have accountability because that is what worked so well the first time.  I want to continue my journey of eating right, getting healthy, and losing more weight.  The weight thing will happen by following my journey but I am not setting an amount.  I just want to do this slow and right.  I have proven that my changes and active living works.  I really started out loud in Jan 2013.  To date I have lost 30 (was at 35 but halloween came and I just got lazy lol), but I have lost 3 dress sizes and can now shop pretty much anywhere.  I can go farther back to my heaviest which was in 2009.  It is then I started really slowly and had many crash and burns.  BUT I can tell you slowly-ever so slowly I have lost more than the 30 lbs.  I never stepped on the scale at that time.  But my clothes were the true reflection.  I lost another 2 dress sizes.

I did run 2 x 5km this summer but I did want to run more but the hernia surgery did impact that.  I want to run at least 3 next spring/summer and a 10km in the fall.  I have started some really fun circuit training with the help of my hubby and my daughter's soccer team.  There is a great FREE app (but we did buy the full version) clued Sworkit Pro.  Try it its the best 30 minutes of cursing, and sweating you will have.  You will thank the God's when they say 30 sec break.  My goal is to this training at least 3 times a week, run at least 3 times per week and have a rest day.

BUT in order to do all this I have to share my secret first.  I am totally embarrassed and I have hidden this from most people but not all people.  I smoked for many many years.  In fact I smoked my first cigarette when i was in Grade 6 in the back of the play yard and it was a purple cigarette with a gold filter.  However, I started buying them regularly at the age of 14.  I quit Feb 2, 2008.  I just woke up one day and said screw it.  I did not look back until 2012--my Mom was ill and having issues and then I started with a puff.  A puff here and a puff there........2014.   I am buying smokes and smoking them.  I am hiding (although not well) from my kids and others.  So, I decided that I need to share this journey along with my other as they go hand in hand.  I quit on Thursday Nov. 13, 2014.  I got my kids and husband to video themselves giving me 3 reasons why they thought I should quit.  They have helped me a lot.  I just go outside and "pretend" like I am having a smoke and I watch the videos.  It has helped tremendously.  I did sneak a puff in the other day but then felt like shit and am over that.  For people who do not understand why people smoke--I wish I had a reason for you.  All I know is I would be totally crushed if my kids did.  Its funny I use to say I would never go back to smoking as I seen the benefits BUT shit fucking happened!  I hate it, and yet LOVE IT.  I will miss it, but I will get over it.

So, I ran on my treadmill for 45 minutes (walked at 3MPH- and ran at 4/5MPH).  I am going to shower and get ready for a full day of work and fun.  If you need me to bitch slap you let me know cause trust me when I say I will need a good bitch slap every once in awhile.  BTW don't hate me for smoking---I really really really really am sorry I did start again for myself and for my family.  I am hoping it will be as easy as it was last time.  Kisses and hugs and lots of bitching to all those who read, share, sympathize, and will join.

So--as I post, curse, laugh and cry I ask you do the same with me.  Share if you want, join me if you want.  Just know I loved all my support last time and I am looking forward to more support this time. I will help you, push you and encourage you I PROMISE!

Here is to a new year --- yeah yeah its Nov but whatever----of workouts, laughs, cursing, weight lose, better lungs, and more fun.

Thanks for listening peace out bitches!
Sonia